There are two questions I’ve been asked pretty often since this happened to me, I am I scared? and am I angry? Those haven’t really been issues for me, so the short answer has always been a simple no. But since they keep coming up, I thought I’d go a little deeper into why I’m not scared and why I’m not angry. I’ll deal with anger today and fear tomorrow.
To be angry it would imply that there was someone or something for me to be angry with and that that person or thing had somehow done me an injustice. Neither of these have happened to. I got cancer and it sucks, but it happens. It happens because we live in broken world where lots of horrible things happen every day. And this happened to me. I don’t need to happy about it, but I do need to deal with it. It’s the old “when life gives you lemons…” adage playing out here. There is no reason to waste your energy being angry, looking for someone to blame. Use your energies to heal and inspire others if you can. And honestly as bad things go, getting Leukemia in Norway doesn’t rank that high on the crappy list.
There is real justice in the universe, its God’s justice, which is not the type of justice that determines whether you get cancer or win the lottery. God’s justice is about bringing love, healing and restoration.
On The Bright Side:
May got her first covid vaccine today