It really was the longest day.
I needed a day off from everything. If you wrote on Monday and I didn’t write back or just gave a short reply it’s because I was out of it. I got to enjoy all the side effects of chemo yesterday. I did a few things on my list but didn’t even bother trying to get it all done. But we won’t discuss that here because as Thumper said “if ya ain’t got nothin’ nice to say then don’t say nothin’ at all.”
Another rough part about yesterday was feeling disconnected from God – I couldn’t pray – my mind would wander, or I would fall asleep. I couldn´t concentrate or recite scripture. So I read a little in my Bible and then just put in some music and trying to sing along with some worship music. Later in the evening I spoke to May and she said that we were going to have to worship our way through this. She is right of course.
On the bright side
I know that even when I feel far away or disconnected from God I’m not. I know He’ll never leave me and that I am in His hand.
An interesting aside:
I kind of figured I would lose my hair. I wasn’t sure how long it would take and since we’re not googling things, we didn’t google this either. But I figured it would be soon than later. So when we packed Friday, we both laughed a little, no, I would not need to pack hair brush, shampoo or a razor. Well, 4 days in, and I still have a full mane (maybe 2 or 3 strains less). Thank you Dad, for an amazing head of hair. And if you know me, you know my hair grows upwards and outwards, and it gets big and crazy, like Kramer.