As days go it wasn’t the worst day (that would have been yesterday) but it wasn’t the best day either (comes behind pretty much every other day except Monday). Still running a fever and feeling generally crappy but trending upward. Today I started to chart what I can and can’t eat. My scientific conclusion at this early stage in the project is that it doesn’t matter one bit. With my immune system down my gut has changed, from an iron chamber that could digest wood and feathers if it needed, in to fickle diva, who might crave an orange one minute, then spit it back out an hour later. Or maybe keep it down all day or maybe she releases it into the bowels to be dealt with another way. There is no rhyme or reason.
The encouragement and kind words and songs keep pouring in. It has been absolutely amazing who has written to me and how they have responded. God is full of surprises. I appreciate every message and I’m sorry I don’t write back in kind. The past few days I haven’t been able to manage much more than a thanks. This blog is in part my response to the many many well wishes and encouragement that has run in.
As I lay in bed trying to pray and trying not to throw up on myself, I get the impression that its ok to just bask sometimes. God knows my heart and where I am. I am not always on but it is ok to just soak up His love. And that is what I am doing. Each message of love and encouragement is being absorbed so that I can use it to love and encourage others.
On the bright side
I think I kicked my coffee habit. I don’t like being addicted to things and caffeine has always had her powerful grip on me. It helped that the coffee here is horrible and the amount of coffee you get when you push the button on the machine isn´t enough for a proper cup of coffee but is to much to fit two servings in a cup
